2011 was a good but challenging year in a lot of ways. I struggled with some depression and anxiety for the first half of the year which was hard on so many levels. While it was difficult, so many great things came of it. It made me question a lot of my beliefs about what was important to me and where I wanted to be not only in the present but also in the future. Jeremy and I really reconnected and I feel like I'm much more present for Ashlyn and attune to making sure my own needs are met. I finally had an "Ah-ha" moment when I realized that I am an absolute control freak. I would stress and worry over every little detail in our lives, whether Jeremy's job was going to continue to go well, if we were going to be able to buy a bigger house soon, if the tree behind our house was going to fall into Ashlyn's room during a storm. The list of worries went on and on, and I was a mess. I finally realized that if I wanted to be happy and at ease I needed to stop swimming against the current of the universe and trust that god has a plan and will care for us along the way. Since this realization my mind is clearer and I feel like the huge weight on my chest has been lifted. I feel extremely optimistic about the future and I'm just so thrilled to be enjoying the present for the first time in a long time.
With 2012 finally upon us I wanted to continue on this path of personal growth so rather than create a list of unrealistic resolutions I decided to create some intentions for continued personal growth and betterment. Here they are in no particular order;
1. Strive to be more present in every social situation.
2. Step outside my comfort zone and speak to more strangers.
3. Take time for myself once a week.
4. Read 1 book per month.
5. Approach each situation and each person I encounter with love.
6. Share only positive energy with those around me.
We have so much to look forward to this year and I know that this will truly be a year to remember and celebrate. I wish the same for you all!!!
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